DAY NINE POST FOUR

Sometimes I get really cranky really quickly. It usually means I need more coffee and to eat more. Since I'm on my third cup and just ate an apple, it may be because fulltimesucks :( and ohmygodthisjustmademecry

And this made me smile slightly enough to slightly lift my mood from the deepest of dispair that comes from being in an office 55+ hours a week with a sky that looks like tornados and rain outside.

Since I'm in a piss-poor mood right now, I'm looking up cheerful quotes. Here are some for you to read too.

All you have to do is contemplate a simple grain of sand, and you will see in it all the marvels of creation. Listen to your heart. It knows all things, because it came from the Soul of the World, and it will one day return there. - Paulo Coelho




The history of progress is written in the blood of men and women who have dared to espouse an unpopular cause, as, for instance, the black man's right to his body, or woman's right to her soul. - Emma Goldman




If every second of our lives recurs an infinite number of times, we are nailed to eternity as Jesus Christ was nailed to the cross. It is a terrifying prospect. In the world of eternal return the weight of unbearable responsibility lies heavy on every move we make. That is why Nietzsche called the idea of eternal return the heaviest of burdens (das schwerste Gewicht).

If eternal return is the heaviest of burdens, then our lives can stand out against it in all their splendid lightness.

But is heaviness truly deplorable and lightness splendid?

The heaviest of burdens crushes us, we sink beneath it, it pins us to the ground. But in the love poetry of every age, the woman longs to be weighed down by the man's body. The heaviest of burdens is therefore simultaneously an image of life's most intense fulfillment. The heavier the burden, the closer our lives come to the earth, the more real and truthful they become.

Conversely, the absolute absence of a burden causes man to be lighter than air, to soar into the heights, take leave of the earth and his earthly being, and become only half real, his movements as free as they are insignificant.

What then shall we choose? Weight or lightness?

Parmenides posed this very question in the sixth century before Christ. He saw the world divided into pairs of opposites:

light/darkness, fineness/coarseness, warmth/cold, being/non-being. One half of the opposition he called positive (light, fine­ness, warmth, being), the other negative. We might find this division into positive and negative poles childishly simple ex­cept for one difficulty: which one is positive, weight or light­ness?

Parmenides responded: lightness is positive, weight negative.

Was he correct or not? That is the question. The only certainty is: the lightness/weight opposition is the most mysteri­ous, most ambiguous of all. -Kundera (read this article - kinda weird to think about if true. good thing i don't know physics and like not to think!) Also, if you haven't seen this movie, watch it. My hair used to be that color.

Still in a bad mood. More coffee to be drunk. And I feel like this.